Happiness. 6:30am post.

Woo. Midterms are now finally done. I doubt I passed my chem. That was just ridiculously hard, even with the cheat sheet we were allowed to have.

Anywho...
I find myself curious and wondering a lot lately, like how I used to when I was a kid and shit. When I was younger I would always be one to ask questions, like when I was just starting to learn what separation and divorce back when I was about 6 or 7..I would always ask my mom and dad why they couldn't be together. Apparently, I would ask the craziest stuff that a child wouldn't normally ask, or so I'm told by the parentals and the family.. I know find myself doing that again.
I don't know if I like that yet or not. I guess we shall soon find out..Blegh.

I'm kind of feeling awkward. I mean, I'm happy. Really happy lately. This "new found" happiness, is really just making me want to explore the world. I want to go outside and just see everything this world has to offer. I want to travel, I want to go camping [[yes I actually want to stay out in the woods with all those bugs]], I just want to feel free, and just simply BE. I want to see the beauty in this world that is hiding, I want my eyes to just open and feel the light. I want it to be summer so I can just go outside with a blanket, just lay there, and look at the stars for hours. I want an adventure, and adventure that is magical, special, invigorating, full of laughter, and so much more. I want to be able to go to the Drive-in, lay on top of a car, watch a movie, and be under the stars with the option to just do either. I mean I know you go to the movies to see a movie, but to be there and just have the stars above you, showing all these possibilities..that makes me feel just this feeling, that I can't explain. I know I keep saying I want, but it's not about just wanting because I plan to go after all that, and I'm excited. I would like it if people joined me on the journey, or journeys, just to share the memories with someone, and enjoy the excitement. It could be a group of friends, a loved one, my dog, someone new.

I look at the possibilities of what the future holds, and my mind just fills with all these ideas of what I could do, and want to do. Of what could happen, and what couldn't. I look at the options of this year alone, and for all I know, I could meet the love of my life, or that person can be standing right in front of me, and its just magical. I could get hurt, but that's not what I want to think about, nor what I plan on thinking about. I'm just looking ahead to the great times I'll spend with mis amigos, loved ones, pets. ANYONE. I feel as though I'm in this new mentality, and I'm just simply happy. I mean, sure I can be angry, but why spend time being angry or feeling alone, when I know I have people who love me that I love just as much.

Technically yesterday, I found myself being angry, but I just couldn't stay angry. My friends cheered me up, and I just was happy. I also find myself being nicer, or at least pointed out to me by Turtle. To those of you who I have had that deep conversation regarding our relationship[[you know who you are]]..I love you guys/girls & I meant every word of it =).

I'm off to do some errands now and get my ish ready to stay at Turtle's house with Cellery. :D I'll write again soon :D.

Simply Yours,

Mookie.

P.S. To the man I will be marrying at 27, and start dating at 24[[insider]] :P..You're words are amazing, and will always be important to me. I listen to you when you speak. I hear you when you speak. I read what you say. You are an amazing person and deserve the best. Don't ever let anyone tell you different. I'll be singing to you again soon. ;). Lol Love ya.